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Y .Wednesday, April 25, 2007.

I haven’t posted my journal these days coz I was quite busy with my multiply account, downloading songs, uploading some old pictures that were stored in my computer for a couple of months, and designing my background so it would look a lil good. I’m still having the same syndrome until now and it gets even worse everyday. I’m pressured by everybody here. First of all my parents, Mom & I had a petty quarrel last night & if I were to think about it, it’s no big deal for me. The problem here is that Mom kept on forcing me to show up in the cam coz my adopted brother’s wife wanted to see me. (She wanted to see me coz she wanted to know what present will suit me the most). I was really not in the mood to chat. My brother chatted me, he asked me couple of questions and I answered them back seriously and after that I logged out from my ym. If you are to criticize the situation I really didn’t’ do anything wrong to embarrass my Mom here or to even offend my brother’s feelings. My point here is that I was being real with my sentiments. I wasn’t in the mood to chat with someone but why can’t she understand? Yeah she asked me a favor even for a second but why does she have to interfere? I have my own mind. I know what I’m doing and trying to be careful as always. I can control my emotions sometimes but I’m not that perfect that I can be like this everytime. She starts to scold me badly, I was explaining to her my part but it seems all she has to believe in her whole entire life was she was always right and that she starts to lower down my self-esteem. She starts to tell me that my mind isn’t stable and I’m incapable when it comes to dealing with other people. Seriously I know myself better than what she thinks of & I’m trying to ignore her statements. They’re useless and they’re not even true. All I want is understanding and consideration but why can’t they give it to me?



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