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Y .Wednesday, May 16, 2007.

its exactly 1:11 in the morning and im still in the shop waiting for 2 customers to finish their time. well im quite bored, and im finding some ways to let my boredness slip away. I just finished watching a korean movie (temptation of the wolves) and i was really carried away. I really cried in every emote scene when the brother would start to pretend that everything was alright to keep his sister from worrying. I abruptly realized that of all the people that i could possibly talk to at this moment why did karla popped into my mind? Probably God knew that she was the right person to help me deal with this problem & as I was busy thinking about things that could make me feel evenly bad maybe God used her to help me feel better. Seriously im still filled with insecurities until now and worst is that i cant let them dissapear immediately. Ive been so K.S.P recently and i seem to miss my old self (the thea that was so jolly, charming, wild, happy-go-lucky, and so pretensious with everything.)I wondered how could i return the things that were used to be there. I really dont know what God was up to, I couldnt find the reason why he wanted me to fall in love with nikko and why he had to let me suffer in this way. I want to make things fall on the right track but I cant. Im so puzzled with everything. I guess Im being punished by karma.(i hope im not) i just dont know whats been with my life right now. ive been focusing my entire time on him, ive let him abuse my kindness in some ways. but u know what i feel so grateful when i get to release all my sentiments here. no one seem to understand me ever since and i think my hopes are gettin down now. Im not into hoping right now.I just hope i could find my answers to my dim-witted questions....



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